Korea, 2013, 2009
Televisions churn music and language, “News, sports Monday Sept 28
and weather up next; don’t go anywhere, we’re not.”
The medium excels at repetition, reinforcement
and I’m rooted to this spot in the departure lounge
like the paperbarks lining a fairway beyond the perimeter fence.
A pigeon flies across the apron, wings sucking air,
My feet wish to hold hands and grow roots penetrating a past
without monumental stone walls or writing, hats or hat-stands,
skateboards, beer or football, a past we totally underestimate.
Roots are hidden from the seasons, though they flow
through our flesh and share the holy atmosphere.
When is the time come? When will it be time to go?
I’m listening to Passion, the track kicking off
Nightmares on Wax on my phones, flying high
at 36,000 feet, in a Boeing 737-332, an older plane
burning fuel at a rate of around three and a half thousand
gallons an hour, and with the crunch on credit
this is an expensive poem.
It’s not a holiday, more a life and death kind of thing,
dad is surviving death for now but framing the end,
our end when mornings are done with for good.
The track slowly builds and a woman’s voice keens
wordless, the smell of aviation fuel fades from
when we taxied over repetitive grey concrete squares
beginning this journey from a roughly painted yellow triangle
with a white border – 5040,
someone knows where I am.
The Cooks River reveals her feminine curves
but the clean blue is deceptive; the wings look flimsy
and for the first time I feel nervous as we hurtle down the runway,
rocking side to side in my seat. I have fifteen years left
on average, though I am overweight, my cholesterol high
but I had a good start, boarding school starvation from an early age.
We level off over the flat spread of suburbs and square white mould
of light industrials and shopping centres, across the Nepean
snatches of honeycomb rib the gorges, the ribbon of development
follows the road, between dusky forests, being told as a child
that the dark is nothing to be frightened of,
that sleep is the most natural thing in the world.
We are flying north-west over gargoyles, the sharp teeth
of canyon systems, a dense green blur of foliage that eases into
field systems, with no trees on the floor. Something’s wrong.
This is where the riches lie, not in aerial geometry
simple forms floating dusky greens with a dusting of pinks
and magenta and greys, lines and corners, how we remember the past.
The fragile covering has scratched the memory of the soil, climate change
killing, our distance even on the ground softens unbearable violence,
a clump of human muscle, a drowned performance by daylight.
I have just tasted turbulence, the wings look too thin, the new terrain
too wild, an occasional line of road, no fields, an air strip
then hills made out from darker lengths of thicker trees funnelling
down and around their base on the performance of shadow
and sfumato, a series of cliff faces, ghostly pale. A head wind of
80 mph blurs fiction, features submerge like a watercolour.
The young Korean slumped beside me is visiting his girlfriend,
he works at Central Station, I show him a poem by Yun Seondo
he doesn’t recognise that name in this language.
He’s watching a soap on his large ipod, keeping a sensible distance
- we’ve just crossed a border, gold thread tying small islands
in an aqua sea, pieces of paradise travel brochures colour saturate.
I have been here before, but not with you. I think that
over the Christmas break we should head back north
and renew the search for where we belong to each other.
I’m drinking CASS, Sound of Fresh Vitality:
100% ultimate refreshment with fizzy and crisp taste,
preferable to anaemic Bud believe it or not.
Barber’s Adagio has found my phones, the onscreen map plots
our flight over Nagasaki at 512 miles per hour. I open the blind,
snap it shut at a blast of light, the enticing curve inching forward
suggests linearity on a round globe. I’ve written about charred bodies
before, Hiroshima was my headquarters for a few days,
but you are a mash-up of images and emotions
your eyes welling as the taxi drives off at dawn, the subject of
so much excellent poetry from this part of the world; we are heroes
and victims of our need for love. I can’t imagine flying without you.
We descend over rhyming islands and a long a sweep of sandflats,
its a ten metre tidal change, the second largest in the world,
outside the airport that familiar smell – a sticky, sweet, fetid hit.
The 15th century temple is too far, so I make do with Airjoy 29
filming the Time Capsule, the new KGB bar and a poem displayed
against the exterior concrete wall of the Hyatt Regency, a poem
by Houseman, the one about cherry trees, of course facing
young oaks hurriedly planted, stuck incongruously nowhere
beside a water garden facing the flat wastelands of Incheon.
Buffet breakfast ends with fresh waffles, cream and berries
and staff are delighted by my few pathetic phrases.
I tour the terrace garden beside the indoor pool looking for birds.
It’s grey. I saw a wagtail from my window early; the grey of dawn
has not budged. The garden displays poems in French, Korean
and Chinese, the French, Hugo, Baudelaire, Florian
and Apollinaire’s short poem on the nasturtium.
As I pack, a mother leopard is forcing her son to leave her territory,
he meets an older female is seduced and then moves on.
At the airport I smile to a beautiful woman with the smoothest skin
and fine bone structure, I obey her uniform and empty my pockets -
in milliseconds the future drops and makes contact,
her wary wide-eyes relax, she smiles back, but by then
I’m through the metal detector and my belt sounds the alarm
again; I don’t have a thing for women in uniform.
I learn about the feudal rule of Koguryo, the foundations of this
divided country, the climate still cold war, the future sticking to its past.
Two girls in delicate kimonos want to help me paint a fan,
I prefer to read their book on landscape painting, the earliest dated
Josean is An Gyen’s ‘Dream Journey to the Peach Blossom Spring’ (1447);
he was asked to paint a prince’s dream, roaming a landscape
described by the poet Tao Qian in northern Song style,
gnarled trees wriggle the foreground, bands of mist shop
for time and space, dramatic mountains block the sun in a beautiful
moody otherworld (like the backgrounds in Van Eyck or Brueghel), >>
and read left to right unlike all others. In the late 17th C some turned
to their actual landscape, the key painter of ‘True-View’ (Jingyeong jansu)
landscape painting, or Silgyeong (actual view) is Jeong Seon
The neo-cons “were wary of the art of painting believing that it could
reveal hidden secrets of Nature, eventually bringing disorder to society.”
Gwannyeom (conceptual) often based on Song Chinese masters
using light wash and improvised brush strokes. The professional painters
preferred to demonstrate their technical skill and used plenty of colour.
The airport is showing paintings from the Joseon period when Goryeo Buddhism
succumbed to Neo-Confucianism, much fine Buddhist art was lost again
when the Japanese invaded and looted. The show is split into two,
ten minutes apart on each wing of the vast hanger, both were empty,
both beside free internet stations that had queues. I fell into a landscape
by Yi Jeong, ‘A scholar gazing at wild geese’ and just made boarding.
Lilly Allen is singing in my ear,
“I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they’re trying to find them.”
There, right below us, the sparkling sea, from 33,000 feet
an immense jiving field of commemorative crystal
and I’m reading Goya’s proposal for the reform of painting:
No hay reglas en la pintura,
I tap the screen for ‘pilots view’, an hour-glass appears,
death is waiting, we have just passed north of Beijing.
The modern arcade is here, Benjamin’s palms, parasols
and pictures except this is livelier. 50 movies to choose from,
Terminator 4 and The Hangover head the list, and now
we are faster at over 500 miles an hour. A toddler squirms
in the seat next to me; I practice on her mother
“I don’t speak Korean”, she says, “I am a Mongol, from Mongolia.”
She’s going to join her husband in London, an IT expert.
I help take her trousers off while mum fills in their immigration cards
only nine hours ten minutes to go, Hangover is much funnier,
the child stares at me, I am an alien giggling aloud.
Her name is Michelle, ‘Oh, French’, I say. ‘No!’ She spells it out,
M i s h e e l, It means ‘spy’. We pass another land/sea interface
Estonia this time, then the islands, the neat fields of Gotland
familiar patterns of settlement, churches, barns, the bounds beaten,
lawns mown . . . a choreography of propeller legs wakes me over small fields,
the borders thicker than before, we are flying parallel to the Thames,
a model new town, the barrier, fascinating Greenwich, golf courses irrupting
Paul Nash and the birch woods with bracken and foxgloves I played in as a boy.
was a protest poet, jailed for protesting against the Vietnam War. As president of the American Center for PEN, she travelled to South Korea in the 1970s to protest against the death sentence of poet Kim Chi-Ha, source of one of her last poems, ‘The Gates’:
Through acts, through poems;
through our closeness—
whatever links us in our variousness;
across worlds, love and poems and justices
wishing to be born.